A little break

Good evening!

This week Theo and I are visiting my parents for some much needed respite. The last few weeks at home have felt really long and tiring so a change is as good as a break. I get to share Theo with my family, catch up with friends I haven’t seen for ages, enjoy the beach and have lots of home cooked food without lifting a finger to prepare it.

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This is Jamie’s Veggie Chilli.  Ah, how I wish we lived closer.

Meanwhile, Tom gets to do this after work:

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Having a bit of space and time has helped me reestablish some healthy eating habits.  Lunch time salads are back in the game, and I feel so much better for it.

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This one had mixed greens, cucumber, tomato, pimento stuffed olives, avocado, balsamic vinegar and hummus.  Since we’re away, our food budget doesn’t really apply so I’ve bought myself some healthy add-ins for my salads.

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I’ve been having a bit of an identity crisis since finishing work to look after my family. I’d only been qualified as a registered nurse for a year before having Theo and now I’m taking another career break. No matter how many times people tell me that being a SAHM is a worthy job, I still feel a failure for not balancing the numerous balls in the air that today’s woman is meant to. I miss the mental stimulation that a working life can bring, and adult conversation that doesn’t revolve around babies and toddlers. I’m not close with the few SAHMs i know which adds to the breeze of isolation that drifts past me every now and again.  However,  I do not miss the stress that my returning to work placed on our family life.  I want to be the main caregiver for Theo.  He’s growing up so fast and I’m blessed that I get to witness it all.  Also, something exciting has happened recently yet I still seem to have more questions go around my mind than answers. Lucky I love researching and reflecting to find solutions.

Onwards and upwards :)  Hope you guys are having a good week. xxx

March, April, Sleep and Diets

I started writing this post weeks ago but Theo kept on waking up before I could finish and hit publish.  Let’s see how successful I am this time…

March was a much better month than February.  Theo has finally remembered how to sleep through the night again. I’m starting to remember what it feels like to be a human being.  

I have consumed numerous variations of this,

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Quinoa and kale with mix-ins.  I’ve had my weekly fix of some sort of kale and quinoa combo for a couple of months now and I still can’t  get enough of it.  Tom always complains when I steam the kale because he believes it makes the house smell “cruciferousy” (to put it kindly).  But I just cannot get my head around eating raw kale.  I’ve tried but it’s not happening.

Theo’s gone down to one nap a day.  I’ve been fighting it for ages as I really need his morning nap to shower etc.  And there are more hours to fill with entertainment for toddlers; lots of trips to the park!  I have finally accepted that I just need to be more organised and suck it up.  The big advantage of the one nap per day is that it’s easier to make plans for the day, and the nap tends to be a long one.  At worst it’s 40 mins, at best it’s 2hrs.  2 hrs!  I can eat lunch at a leisurely pace, sort stuff out, have a cup of tea, watch The Real Housewives (obsessed)…  Amazing.

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As for this month, I’ve been thinking a lot about diet (WARNING; ramble ahead).  Despite what my kale and quinoa love would suggest, my diet has never really recovered since I was pregnant with Theo.  Before I conceived Theo I had starting eating meat and dairy again for a variety of reasons; most of which centred around health.  Then when I became pregnant I had massive food aversions to all things healthy so my lunchtime salads went out the window.  Then Theo arrived.  I love him, and he’s the best thing that’s happened to Tom and I, but gosh that first year was tough.  Since I finished work, and Theo and I have got back into our groove, mentally I feel more like my pre-pregancy self.  I’ve had the head-space and energy to think about my hobbies and what’s important to me.  Naturally food is a massive part of both of these things.  Diet.  My current diet is an eat-everything-tarian one.  But I’m not convinced that this is the best for health.  Meat has actively been part of our diet since weaning Theo due to his nut allergy and dairy intolerance.   And generally in our house dairy is consumed in minimal amounts on a day-to-day basis.  Yet something doesn’t sit right.  From all the research I’ve done over the years, and the numerous diets I’ve tried in order to control my IBS, eating as I do now seems to fly in the face of all I’ve learnt.  There’s a whisper from my partially raw, vegan days questioning where I am now.  And I miss the vibrancy of a good vegan diet.

What to do.  I don’t know.  I’m genuinely stuck.  I don’t think I’m convinced by the health claims of veganism, but I do believe the evidence that suggests dairy could be bad for us.  I can stand by the notion that eating processed food, too many carbs, and not enough vegetables is damaging to health.  And sugar is definitely evil.  But what about meat (and fish, I guess).  This is where I stumble.  Is meat part of a diet that is best for our health?  I don’t have an answer to this that pleases me yet.  I’m still looking, reading, listening, thinking.  Tell me what you think.